40 Facts About Me

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  1. My favorite color is purple.
  2. I talk a lot when I’m tired.
  3. Spaghetti makes me happy.
  4. I say weird things most of  the time.
  5. I don’t like getting any grade less than a B.
  6. I LOVE FAMILY.
  7. I Love writing.
  8. I love reading.
  9. I love math class.
  10. I love soccer.
  11. I love wrestling.
  12. My favorite soccer player is Christiano Ronaldo.
  13. My favorite poet is Maya Angelou.
  14. I like scary movies.
  15. I love 4N6.
  16. I don’t have a favorite book.
  17. I listen to every genre of music.
  18. I love 5 Seconds Of Summer.
  19. I DESPISE high school.
  20. I love Finn Balor.
  21. I am very frugal (Call me Mr.Krabs).
  22. I change my hair very often.
  23. I want to be a news reporter.
  24. My dream college is Purdue University.
  25. I could survive off of black beans or peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
  26. I am a 90’s baby.
  27. Before people get to know me they tell me I look mean.
  28. My favorite super hero is Captain America.
  29. I love playing black ops 3 zombies on the PS4.
  30. If I’m not busy I feel like something is wrong.
  31. I suffer Knee Subluxation.
  32. I don’t like negativity.
  33. Mortal Kombat will forever be my favorite game
  34. I get irritated laying Sims.
  35. I like taking pictures of nature.
  36. I don’t want to be famous.
  37. I love cartoons.
  38. I like to read all types of comics.
  39. I wish I could have a pet.
  40. I’ve never met anyone with the same name as me.

Why I Don’t Like School Fights

SCHOOL FIGHT BLOG

 

For me to be a huge wrestling fan, I think it’s weird and good that I’m not a fan of school fights. people will tell me that wrestling is fake and school fights are real. I think that’s the problem, they are just too real. You have to think about that person actually getting hurt, bleeding and possibly dying. Usually when someone is ready to fight it is all about causing pain to the opponent, but I just don’t like it. Recording videos just really get to me as well because this is what people think is “cool”. Growing up and getting over the small things that people fight over is just too difficult the best route is to fight right? Let the entire school know that you beat up so and so and that you could be next right? Recording this fight is more important than anything right now because I have to see it on Snapchat, Facebook, and Instagram. Everyone must know how much I humiliated this person in front of a crowd of people.

 
I guess I hate school fights because I’m not with the hype, I don’t get a kick out of them at all so for me to watch them would just be pointless. The funny thing is that every time a fight broke out at my school, I was never around. Someone would run up to me and say “Girl did you just see that fight” and I would always never see it. It was weirdly satisfying on my end to never be put in that position. Another reason why I don’t like fights is because you don’t know what could happen. Some parents like to fight too so for their kids to do it, it’s considered okay to come home and brag about a big win. They don’t think about their child never coming home or never breathing again because of something stupid

 

Amy Anita Joyner was a victim in a bathroom fight at school that she originally tried to make peace with her peers, but you know that was too difficult, right? Let’s be irrational, I don’t want to compromise I want to knock your head off. That young girl lost her life over something so stupid. No matter what I can never get that image of Amy being on her knees in desperation for help, it is truly heartbreaking. She isn’t the only one though, Young Serena Mckay was also a victim in a brutal fight. I didn’t get a chance to see the story on the news. One day I was just scrolling down my Facebook timeline and someone shared a video of this poor girl getting stepped on and another girl screaming at her making threats. It’s not entertaining to me, I actually cried. It wasn’t at school, but this just gives you an idea of what is poisoning our youth.

 

Imagine yourself being at home or at work and you get a call from your child’s school to be notified that they were fighting. You come home to your child being unrecognizable because of the bruises and wounds from a fight. What if you get the bad news “You’re child died during a school fight” or “Your child is in critical condition because of a fight that happened at school. Things like this are what cause a lot of teens to be home-schooled because there is no guarantee that a school is a safe place anymore. Anything can happen outside of school, at work, at a stop sign, and anywhere else, but how we handle our battles] defines who we truly are. Fighting is not the answer to every social conflict, but pride in protecting each other in a healthy way is the real deal.

~Arganise

Why I Believe Parents SHOULDN’T Tell Their Children Not To Have Sex

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As the child, I know you can’t really control how your parent will give you “The talk’ and by “The talk” I mean about sex. It’s a very touchy and uncomfortable subject to talk about with a child, but the awareness must be known. My problem comes in when parents tell their children not to have sex at all. Let me bring that back for you “At all”. Teenagers usually get “The Talk” around 12 or 13, but some parents wait until they feel like it is right to do so. Now I’m not saying that I think it’s wrong to tell your child to not have sex at ages like 12-16 because that’s young and I’m pretty sure they should be doing other things besides worrying about that in that age range. When they are in the upper ages like 16-18 I just don’t like it when they say “Just don’t do it”. Hearing that line and not knowing enough information about sex can lead to some struggles.

 

I know what you’re thinking “Well that’s why sex ed is being taught in health class, to make our kids aware of what’s going on”. Oh yeah, well guess what? The school just took a little load off of you, they aren’t responsible for your child’s health and what they do outside of those doubled doors, you are. If you haven’t noticed some teens are rebellious so your “Just don’t do it” doesn’t mean a darn thing, that is a motive.

 

My mother was strict on me and it didn’t really help. Even though I never got pregnant or engage in intercourse, it wasn’t her teachings that made me this way. Her being strict on me only built taller walls, a bad relationship, and fear. It was the littlest things that would just make me upset like being around a boy or talking to one would make me a “fast little girl”. It was more of a shameful treatment and she isn’t religious either, so I would be scared to be around a boy in front of her for longer than 5 minutes. I actually didn’t get my first boyfriend until my sophomore year of high school.

My first relationship lasted 3 months and I was young so you know I had to be girly about it. I told my mom about me having a boyfriend which was okay because she told me I can date when I’m sixteen. She played it off pretty cool, but then I regretted ever telling her because If I did something wrong she would always say “You f***ing up because of your too busy worried about boys. He would have no absolute relevance to what was going on, but she kept saying it and just made me not want to be in a relationship. I did excellent my sophomore year, but I came home to taunting. Yes, my mother was one of those “Just don’t do it” mothers and I didn’t do it, but not because she told me not to.

I didn’t because watched my mother get treated horribly by men as a child and I didn’t want that life anymore. It was a life I was trying to run from and so I wrote in my journal that I would save myself for one person and one person only. I only want to give my heart and body to one man, whether that marriage lasts long or not I will never know, but at least I will know that I stood my grounds and that there is someone for everyone.
Some parents act like sex isn’t natural hints the phrase “Just don’t do it”. I can understand “Just don’t do it in the house that I pay the bills for” because to me that’s disrespectful. When you say “Just don’t do it” and you put fear into your child your just setting yourself up. They will find out what they need to find out without you knowing. Because you can’t have a normal conversation, give condoms, and birth control, it’s a possibility that you will see the day your child comes crying to you with a test.

All of us have hormones and urges, you can’t just ignore that fact. If you did your part, you told your child the options, and let them know that you are there for them when they are ready then I give my respect to you. Whether your child listens or not is up to them. I really wish my mother would have given me the talk and how to go about things even though it’s not one of my worries now, I just really would have appreciated the fact that she cared about me that much to help. You can’t choose your parents and you can’t choose the deliverance.

 

“Just don’t do it” could be “Just don’t do it in the house that I pay bills for”
“Just don’t do it” could be “Just be safe”
“Just don’t do it” could be “Just inform me when you’re ready”
“Just don’t do it” could be “Just go to the doctor’s office before and after”
“Just don’t do it” could be “Just remember to stay focused on your future”.

~Arganise

5 Survival Tips For High School Seniors

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Good afternoon everyone summer is coming to an end and that means back to school! Time for another year and opportunity to get educated yay! I thought long and hard about my high school experience and decided to share my tips to help you get through those tough times. If you’re a high school senior or if you’re the parent of a senior please listen up.

 
1) EYES ON THE PRIZE/ STAY FOCUSED THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE YEAR

I know being a senior is super exciting because you’re a part of a huge leadership in your school. You’re considered one of the big dogs in the building, but please don’t take it for granted. Senioritis is bound to hit you probably in the middle of the school year or close to the end. If you’re not really passionate about school, you will just stop caring and your grades could possibly fall apart. Keep in mind that your cumulative GPA can make or break you in terms of scholarships, college acceptance, and a clean academic profile, so don’t slack.

 
2) TRY TO BE ON TIME
Hints the word “try”, I know I can’t give too much advice on this because I know my attendance record was horrible. I could make a storm with tardy slips (Kids don’t try this at home). It was pretty sad and devastating on end because my poor attendance made me have to work ten times harder than anyone else. After school, I went straight to work, and after work, I would come home clean up, shower, do homework and study. Most of my nights I didn’t go to sleep at all because I had to be at the bus stop at 5 am and my study sessions and homework would last until 3 or 4 a.m. I don’t want you to have all of that stress on yourself because it was physically and mentally draining for me, so If you can make it easy on yourself please do so.

 
3) TRY TO MAINTAIN A HEALTHY SOCIAL LIFE

I will do my best to explain because I’m not too heavy on knowledge in this area, mainly because in High School I didn’t mess with anyone. I had a few people that I considered very good friends and my forensics family, but I don’t like the idea of having a lot of friends. To me, it’s just too much to deal with and too many different personalities. If you’re more social than I am, then I suggest that you just keep a healthy social life. By that, I mean surrounding yourself with people who have the same mindset as you, will do good by you, and will not try to get you into any trouble. When it comes to relationships I know sometimes we don’t make the best decisions, but that’s life and so I can only wish you the best of luck and hope that you love yourself enough to surround yourself with people that love you too.
4) DON’T FORGET TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR FASFA AND SCHOLARSHIP OPPORTUNITIES

The beginning of my senior I begin to scholarship hunting so that I can already have some money to my name for the college. My advice would be to s scholarship hunt as soon as possible because they come and go quickly. Do your research and see what’s available to you know matter what your academic profile is looking like at the moment. Academic and Athletic scholarships are usually big depending on who is sponsoring them and the amount of money given away, but there are also scholarships that you can gain from art, writing an essay, or even being left handed! I’m pretty sure that your counselors and principal will hound you about completing your FASFA unless they really don’t care. I do care and that’s why I will tell you to make sure that form is completed as soon as possible so that you won’t be left with lesser money. I filled mine out early December just get it out of the way, but trust me it is a great relief when you don’t have to worry about it. We had FASFA Nights at my school to inform parents and students about the FASFA and how to fill it out. If you’re willing to take the initiative on your own, plan an FASFA date with your parents and make it fun while you’re at it. Have dinner, breakfast, coffee, maybe reward yourself after you’re done with a family game of mini golf, bowling, or competitive laser tag! I’m just throwing it out there.

 
5) REMEMBER WHATEVER YOU DO THERE IS A CONSEQUENCE

I know sometimes we slip up and do things without thinking about the aftermath, but during this last year lets not have too many slip ups. By now you should have some type of idea but what you want to do with your life which could be getting your dream job, going to trading school or college. Your high school reputation carries a lot of weight so it important to maintain a good image within your school and outside of your school because you never know who’s watching. What you say or do can tarnish something that could help you out in many ways. If you’re being a full-time butthole in class, when you ask your teachers for recommendation letters they’re not going to want to give it to you. Some may say winning school fights earn you the upmost respect, but in my eyes, I think it’s pretty stupid. It’s going to be on your school record, you’re old enough to actually deal with the law enforcement on a more serious matter, and most importantly the kids you go to school with won’t be paying for your tuition or write any checks. I understand in a lot of cases students are put in a situation when they have no choice but to defend themselves, but if you really don’t have to, don’t engage in that stuff. Save the drama for Drama club if you really want to act up in school. What you do now, tomorrow, and next year matters. It all matters!
Even though you may not like what I have to say, I hope I was able to help because I truly care about the generation ahead. I won’t be here forever so I’m making my mark. Just take care of yourself with much love.

~Arganise

College Jitters

This is the moment I’ve been waiting for since ninth grade, but I’m just super shocked how fast those 4 years went by. It’s truly amazing, I’m blessed enough to start college this month. Not only that, but I will be 19 August 24th (I know I’m getting old haha).  With all of these amazing things happening in one month I can only thank god and reflect. I had this blog since I was sixteen years old and here I am continuing with a new chapter in my life. For those who don’t know I got accepted into my dream school which is Purdue University, but unfortunately, I can’t afford to go at the moment. While I put Purdue on pause, I will be studying Communications at Oakland Community College for two years. In those two years, I will continue to bust my behind like I had to do in high school, continue to apply for scholarships, and make my academic profile something to be proud of. Knowing that I have the option to attend Purdue makes me feel powerful in many ways because my dream has come true and eventually I will be able to live that dream. These pesky jitters are just worries and I know I will eventually get over it. I know College life is a lot different than High Schools, but I believe I can get through these four years. Wish me luck and thank you for growing up with me.

~Arganise

It’s Okay To Be Weird

SELF IMAGE POSTER 7  I want you to know that this isn’t a stamp of approval, in fact, you don’t need anyone’s approval for being yourself. I believe in today’s society people act on things in search of other people’s approval. For example, trending things like how we take pictures and videos, you may do it like everyone else in search of a reaction that is welcoming. I’m telling you the bandwagon is a wagon you don’t have to ride in. There have been plenty of times when I just felt like a complete outcast in my own environment, but I’m content because I’m being myself without a worry of what anyone else thinks.

If I bring up the word “Normal” it’s like what is normal? There are so many definitions of normal which are also sometimes determined by society. The real definition of normal is conforming to a standard, usual, typical, or expected. From reading that definition I realized that there is nothing normal about me haha. I’m not ashamed to express my weirdness, I’m letting you guys know what you’ve signed up for! To some the music that I listen to, the things that I’m interested in and how open I am to others is “weird”. It’s okay because I know I’m living up to myself 100% and that’s all I need.

When I talk to others, some say it’s not that easy. Well, my response to that is you’re right, but is your happiness worth sacrificing for someone else’s satisfaction. When you live to please others it only hurts. The more you live up to someone’s expectations, the more pain you inflict on yourself. I know because my mother always had this ideal image of what I’m supposed to be, but I would just fight against it. When I caved in I was truly miserable. Just because you’re not doing everything everyone else is doing, that doesn’t make you a bad person. I’m unique in many ways and so are you. You don’t have to accept me as I am and I’m not obligated to accept you as you are, but at the end of the day, the acceptance of yourself is what you should find. Remeber weirdos it’s not the fact that we’re weird, the world just doesn’t understand us.

~Arganise

I challenge you to share your story with me with #WeirdWorld

She The Desirable

She sashays to the bar across the room
While sitting she lifts a naked leg to catch the dreamer boy’s eyes
She licks her glossy lips
The nerves in his body dance at the night
She the desirable
That could send a man to hell
She recognizes a wedding ring miles away without a care
Her hour glass body is a weapon
His eyes slip inside the base of her cleavage, only wanting to go lower
The way that dress hugs her thunder thighs makes a man turn into a beast
Such a desire
She the desirable had a shared a cocktail or two with a starving man
He rented her for the night and feasted in her home
The next day the man’s belly was full and returned home to no wife and no kids
His ring
His life
Gone
She the desirable knows exactly what to do
And the next day she will feed another
~Arganise

Be A Trophy

I call myself a trophy because I represent achievement and god’s glory
That he can bring me out of anything
I like to think of myself as one of his many trophies
As a display of prestige and honor
Of course everything that has glitters isn’t gold
I have my roughness and dark corners
I like to think of myself as a trophy because everyone is looking at me
I like to think of myself as a trophy because I am one
~Arganise

Listen To Your Child

Listen to your child
When she cries to you
Listen
Your child will get angry because you didn’t believe
You called it a lie because you didn’t want to sleep alone
The same man that is laying in your bed at night is playing in her panties when you’re not looking
It doesn’t take boobs and butt for a man to want you
A young body tampered with by a dirty bastard
She can’t sleep because she is waiting for her door to crack open
She cries and screams because he won’t stop
You let him enter
He can wake up to a nice breakfast and run with her innocence
Her body was explored because you didn’t listen
It only takes that one time to change that little girl’s life forever
Listen to your child
~Arganised

I Rather Not Complain

I rather not complain

I may not have everything, but I don’t want to complain

I rather not complain

I may have lost hours of sleep and nothing to eat, but I don’t want to complain

I rather not complain

I’ve been let down by people, but I don’t want to complain

I rather not complain

A minimum wage job two days out of the week to make ends meet won’t do a damn thing, still I don’t want to complain

I rather not complain

I couldn’t live a normal teenage life because I was twenty years old in the head of a twelve year old body, but I didn’t complain

I don’t want to

I won’t

Complain

~Arganise

 

 

Daddy’s Ghost

Father who is suppose to be my father

Why aren’t you being a father to me?

Our relationship, if you’re familiar has vacated

I use to be a daddy’s girl now I’m daddy’s ghost

You don’t see me

Daddy, I’m you’re child

I can never tell

I can’t lie, sometimes I’m not so proud

I know why you did it, but you shouldn’t take it out on me

Grandpa is gone so who do I have now?

Daddy’s ghost doesn’t need anything

Daddy’s ghost doesn’t need your support

Daddy’s ghost doesn’t need you in her life because she is use to not having you

Until you learn how to grow, her spirit will be with you

She will be missing

And you will be left out

~Arganise