I Did It!!!

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After four years of pain, tears, and late night study sessions I finally walked across the stage to receive my prize. It was truly a huge win for me because this is just one of the many prizes that is yet to come. Graduation day was very hard for me because I always imagined it being a special moment with my grandfather. The night before I had a dream about my grandpa looking at me dressed in my cap and gown on just telling me how proud he was of me. I cried so much in my sleep that I woke up to a damp pillow and a headache. Graduation day was miserable for me.

I asked my mom to do one thing for me and that was to get me to the ceremony on time because she is late for everything which is why I have a horrible attendance record. My counselor told us to be at the ceremony by 6:15 p.m. because we have to get our stuff and lined up before it starts at 7. My mom didn’t have me there until 6:50 because she didn’t have her clothes out and rushed to get ready when she has been up since 5:00 a.m. I don’t even live with her so she didn’t have to worry about me getting dressed, when she picked me up the only thing that wasn’t done was my makeup and that didn’t even take a long time.

I was so upset and I had to rush to get In the building before my class began to march. I was so focused on getting in the line that I didn’t notice my honors graduation stole was missing. On top of that I couldn’t find my gray forensics graduation cord that my coaches gave me. Each graduate that was on the forensics team received one which was only nine. My frustration and anxiety caught up with me so I cried in front of everyone just before we began to march. People were thinking that they were tears of joy, but they were really tears of pain. I really didn’t stop being angry until I received my diploma. Before I walked out to see my family, I realized that I had to pull myself together for myself and my family. If it wasn’t for my grandma taking me into her home and driving me to school everyday I wouldn’t have never made it across the stage. My mother never pushed me to be a scholar I did it on my own. She would be okay with just passing, I wanted more. I always go above and beyond because my grandparents showed me the light that I have inside myself. My own father didn’t even show up to my ceremony, but that didn’t surprise me.

The next day was my graduation party which was also a disaster. My dad showed up and acted like it was okay to miss his first-born walk across the stage. Then he started making excuses, that only made me even more mad. He said that no one told him or reminded him. The reason why I don’t like talking to my dad is because he makes everything about him. This entire year he hasn’t asked about any senior stuff or ways to get active because HE DOESN’T CARE! He didn’t ask about senior pinning, prom, or trips because HE DOESN’T CARE! I called him plenty of times on the phone to try to remind him about getting a ticket, but he didn’t answer the phone or return my calls, so I said forget it I’m not going to chase down anyone to love me. He didn’t offer to help with my senior dues, class field trips, or my graduation party because HE DOESN’T CARE! If he really cared about being there for me on graduation day he would have called or texted me back to verify the date just like he can write down on the calendar his wife’s birthday and his other kid’s birthday, he could have written my graduation day. But, he didn’t because HE DOESN’T CARE!

It didn’t stop there my mom put the icing on the cake. I went outside to show her the new soccer ball my friend had brought me and she responded with “What are you going to do with that, you don’t play soccer”. I responded by saying “You don’t know what I do, I haven’t lived with you for two years”. After that she just started talking all types of bad things about me at MY PARTY! A party to celebrate an accomplishment. My whole day was ruined and I cried myself to sleep because I couldn’t believe my mother sat in the yard and just said horrible things about me to my family. I was just relieved that my forensics coaches left before it happened. My mom talks about my writing because she doesn’t think I’m a good writer. I know I have a long way to go because I’m not a great writer, but I try. Do you know every time I post a poem her response is “What is it about?” She even talked about me working for taco bell after she dogged me out for not having a job. It’s just sad that being an honor roll student, having a 4.1 gpa, forensics broadcaster, 18-year-old virgin and a hard worker wasn’t worth one day on the calendar and a day to let me be happy.

The next day my mom was supposed to throw a party for me at her house, but I told her that I wasn’t coming because she ruined my graduation day and party. She said that they were going to still have the party without me being there. While I’m at work I received long paragraphs from my mom basically saying I’m stupid, I will regret turning my back on her, and that I’m jealous of her. That last one made me laugh so hard! I’m not jealous of anyone if anything I made our family look better, but I get treated like a disgrace.

It took a lot of strength and energy to write this post, but my reason is to show you how you can do anything. People will hate you, they will envy you, and they want to be you. Look at me, can you believe that someone like me came from parents like those two? I grind because I want to be the opposite of them. I walked across that stage for myself and grandpa, not for anyone’s approval. I’m proud of myself for making it this far and being brave enough to continue.

~Arganise

 

Movie Review: Wonder Woman

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Good morning everyone I just made it in my house after seeing the new Wonder Woman movie and I have to say it is not what I thought it would be. It’s 2 a.m. and boy am I disappointed. through the last scenes of the movie I couldn’t shake the thought of writing an angry letter to DC and the producers of this movie. In the beginning of the movie I was okay because I love Wonder Woman’s back story of living in the lands where amazons rule and protect the world from the dangers of civilization and evil. I don’t want to go into too much detail because I don’t want to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t seen it yet.  There were a few comedic moments between the characters which I thought was a great idea to collide with Wonder Woman’s intense personality, it brought a more light side to the deep drama. The only thing that really bothered me while watching this movie is that it wasn’t as graphic as I thought it would be. The fighting scenes were okay, but I felt like it could have been better. I was expecting to hear some bones snap, more powerful effects, and more than just making Wonder Woman act like a character standing for girl power. Just because the film is about a female super hero that doesn’t mean that the fights shouldn’t be more barbaric and messy, it’s the best part. I also noticed a lot of sexual references associated with the on-screen relationship that Wonder Woman has with Steve which also is humorous, but takes away from Wonder Woman’s dynamic character in my opinion. My expectations were different before I seen the movie. I thought that she would not trust men at all and that the male characters would have to work to earn her trust, but that wasn’t the case. Overall the movie wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t as great as my friends were making it seem. On a scale from 1-10 I would give this movie a 7.5.

~Arganise

40 Facts About Me

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  1. My favorite color is purple.
  2. I talk a lot when I’m tired.
  3. Spaghetti makes me happy.
  4. I say weird things most of  the time.
  5. I don’t like getting any grade less than a B.
  6. I LOVE FAMILY.
  7. I Love writing.
  8. I love reading.
  9. I love math class.
  10. I love soccer.
  11. I love wrestling.
  12. My favorite soccer player is Christiano Ronaldo.
  13. My favorite poet is Maya Angelou.
  14. I like scary movies.
  15. I love 4N6.
  16. I don’t have a favorite book.
  17. I listen to every genre of music.
  18. I love 5 Seconds Of Summer.
  19. I DESPISE high school.
  20. I love Finn Balor.
  21. I am very frugal (Call me Mr.Krabs).
  22. I change my hair very often.
  23. I want to be a news reporter.
  24. My dream college is Purdue University.
  25. I could survive off of black beans or peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
  26. I am a 90’s baby.
  27. Before people get to know me they tell me I look mean.
  28. My favorite super hero is Captain America.
  29. I love playing black ops 3 zombies on the PS4.
  30. If I’m not busy I feel like something is wrong.
  31. I suffer Knee Subluxation.
  32. I don’t like negativity.
  33. Mortal Kombat will forever be my favorite game
  34. I get irritated laying Sims.
  35. I like taking pictures of nature.
  36. I don’t want to be famous.
  37. I love cartoons.
  38. I like to read all types of comics.
  39. I wish I could have a pet.
  40. I’ve never met anyone with the same name as me.

Judge and timer ready?

 

Honestly, I didn’t find myself participating in extracurricular activities my senior year because I have a job and I have to focus on my studies, I despise my high school strongly, and I didn’t feel like I would have the strength. Take a look, I did it! I managed to work, keep my grades up and become a great forensics broadcaster. Thanks to my team for supporting me each and every practice and competition, I’ve made a path for myself to become one of the best forensics broadcasters in Michigan. It doesn’t end there, I’m also a state qualifier contestant. I’m glad that I’ve found something that I truly love besides writing. I will forever love 4N6 and my team.

 

Don’t Forget To Share

The poet of the month of May was a hard find indeed. I spoke to this young lady and I was instantly blown away. She is not only beautiful, but has the brains to match. I’m proud of her because I know how much her poem ‘The Poem You Will Never Read” meant to her. She has been through so much, yet she can smile like she never has. Please support all poets of the month, share the poem or photo. All rights belong to her of course. Lets show this young lady some love. You have no Idea how we can change lives in just a few minutes. Thank you so much for reading, I love you all.

~Arganise

“The Poem You Will Never Read” By: Jawsome

How can you be so selfish
You’re going to hell for this
Didnt even leave a note so no one knows why you did it
When you hung yourself you left me hanging
All the bad memories replaying, replaying, replaying
I can’t get it out of my head
I keep telling myself that Its not my fault but
I know thats a lie
If I had just kept my mouth shut
You’d still be alive
This isn’t fair
I wish I didnt care
They kept calling you worthless
But you didn’t deserve this
You could’ve got help
(To fix how you felt)
You know it wasn’t right but you did it anyway
You fucked up my life
Then you took yours away
Was all the pain you caused not enough for you?
Nope, you had to this too
But theres no going back now
You’re a ghost of the past now
And I know I should be strong
And try my best to move on
Just know that every july on the 29th day
I’ll remember you, and visit you, and spit on your grave

College Acceptance Letters!

 

Everyone I have some wonderful news! I probably should have shared this with you awhile ago, but I have a lot of college acceptance letters. I’m going to be honest most of the schools I’ve been accepted into, I didn’t think I would have a chance. Being unstable most of my life caused a lot of patterns in both my attendance and grades. Out of my entire high school career I’ve attended three different high schools in three different areas. That consisted of adapting to new environments, new ways of learning, and getting to know people all over again. In school I don’t have a lot of friends and it doesn’t make me sad because I felt every time I would get close to someone I had to leave them. I don’t like to be known in school or receive a lot of attention. In high school I will admit my attendance is absolutely disgusting. I would get up three hours before everyone and I would still be late, it was always something. I’m too poor to afford a car so I always had someone to take me and that was the worst. Now everyday I wake up at 4am, shower, get dressed, skip breakfast and get a ride to the bus stop. I board the bus at 6:50 and make it to the bus stop down the street from my school at 7:40am. My first hour class starts at 7:50, so I have ten minutes to run to the school building, walk upstairs to the third floor to put my things in my locker, and back downstairs to the second floor into AP Studio Art before the bell rings. Yes it’s exhausting! I do thank god for giving me a job so that I can start saving money to buy a vehicle. I’ve been doing this for two years and the money I spend on bus rides every month, is pretty much gas money.

I didn’t tell you guys that last quarter I finished with a 4.1 gpa. I care that much about myself that no matter what I’m going to make sure I know what I have to know to get where I need to go. When I had glimpsed at my official transcript I was so disappointed because I didn’t think anyone would take me with a cumulative gpa of 2.9. The instability reflected heavily. I was always late at the high school I attended my freshman year. All of my classes were college prep and I felt like the instructor moved too fast for me. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t get it. I failed algebra 1 and had a D and some C’s. Then my sophomore grades were a lot better, I had one B and the rest were A’s. Junior year I had straight A’s the entire year and my current year I have nothing, but A’s. I have to finish strong I stand as number 54 in our class rank out of 273 seniors.

Although I was extremely depressed after looking at the transcript, I applied to all of the colleges I always wanted to go to. My dream college is University Of Texas, but since it’s too far and out of state tuition is up the butt I didn’t go for it. My second dream college is Purdue University. I know the cost for this college is up the butt too, but I applied anyway just to see if it was an option for me. I didn’t expect to get an acceptance letter, but………….guess what? This one, yes this one got accepted. When I seen the letter, I jumped up and down and poured tears everywhere. Never would I’ve ever thought I could make it into this school.

The next week I had lots of mail with my name on it sitting on our living room table. Each one I opened was an acceptance letter. I received letters from: University Of Michigan, Central State University, Eastern Michigan University, Wayne State University, Ferris State University, Oakland University, Grand Valley State University, and Saginaw University.With all of these expensive colleges in my mind, I have to make sure I apply for as many scholarships as possible and use what I qualify for free on my FAFSA. I feel so powerful and even more motivated to end this year with a bang. I hope that a lot of you will celebrate class of 2017 with me. Remember anything is possible.

~Arganise